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Listen

Sun is shining
Birds are chirping
There’s a cool breeze
Squirrels
Making noises
Communicating
Wonder what they are saying

We all have our own way
To communicate
God gave us all a way
Sounds. Hands. Tapping. Music. Poetry. Painting.

We all have a voice
Do we choose to use it?
That’s a different question

You know what we don’t do?
Or is it I don’t do enough of?
Listen. We don’t
We are too busy
Mind, thoughts. They are all elsewhere.

But where?
Planning for the future?
Or planning the next meal?
Do we have enough for the next meal?

Can we even plan for our futures?
How far can we even plan?
One day?
One week?
One month?
One year?
Can anyone see?

Do you see each other?
Do you see the struggles of others?
Struggling to keep it together?

Keys jingling
Car doors slamming
Motors turning over
People leaving

Why do people leave?
Why can’t they stay?
Why isn’t love enough?
Why can’t we love ourselves enough?
Why can’t we love each other enough?

Why must there be so much hate?
Why must hate exist?
Don’t try to decorate hate

We are different
We think differently
We were raised different
We have to protect ourselves

No!

We all have a mind. Clear or not.
We all have a heart. Strong or not.
We all have eyes. Weak or not.
We can all see
We can all hear
With our hearts
With our minds

Stop!

Use your mind. Think.
Use your heart. Feel it.
Hear what your mind is saying
Hear what your heart is saying

It needs to end
The pain
The hurt
The hate
It all needs to end

Silence
Enjoy the silence
Embrace it
Breathe it in
Breathe it out

It’s a new day

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Breathe

She walks into a room
Takes a deep breath
Looks around and breathes

Anxiety

Familiar faces?
Where are they?

Anxiety

She puts a smile on
Tucks her hair behind her ear
Takes a step forward
She can do this
Breathe

Anxiety

She smiles
Found familiar faces
Another deep breath
She can do this

Anxiety

She moves around the room
Chatting
Listening
Laughing
Smiling
Deep breaths
She can do this

Anxiety

Time to say goodbye
It’s almost over
Deep breaths

Anxiety

Back
Back to safety
Back to more familier ground
Back to her corner
Back to her blanket
Deep breaths

Its over
She survived
Breathe

Anxiety

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Before

There’s always a before
Before the baby was born
Before the marriage
Before someone passed
Before the divorce
Before…

How about after
Does anyone focus on the after
Why do we focus so much on the before
Is it because of regrets
Is it because we’re missing something

Why not focus on the after?
The joy can be found in the after of any type of loss
It’s not easy but it can be done

Sometimes the after brings us to a different place then we were expecting
Because we were so focused on other things
If that monumental moment didn’t take place, you wouldn’t be where you are today, correct?

There will be many befores and many afters
Some will bring sadness
Others will bring joy
It’s about how we handle each situation

Don’t get stuck in the negativity
Celebrate the joyful moments
Celebrate the accomplishments
Celebrate the beautiful memories

Take a step
Make a plan on how to pull yourself out of the negativity;
Or take yourself out of the before
And prepare yourself for the after

We all have our own struggles
But it’s not until you make a decision (for yourself) to change that change can happen

Look around you
Who is your support system
They are there for you
Don’t shut them out
But YOU actually need to take action;
Take a step – something tangible
Only then will change happen

Once that step is taken you will then be able to look back and say “before when I was…“
Take time today to celebrate life – live it to its fullest
Because life is short

I spent too many years struggling. And dwelling in the negativity,
but today anytime negativity tries to show its ugly head I just say
no! Not today!! I’m living in the after. I choose joy!

What will you choose today??

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Make a difference

As the new year begins we all tend to reflect on the past and to set goals for the future.  As I look back I think about the different points in my life someone has made a difference outside of my family.  I am so thankful for the people who I have encountered at different crossroads in my life.

My high school guidance counselor, Mrs. Scavone.  She listened to my teenage tantrums and gave me great direction and believed in me and what I could become.  She opened my eyes to furthering my education.  My first boss at Aetna, Linda Ramos, who took me under her wing and taught me Lotus (yes, I’m that old!) showing me that I could learn anything and become anything.  Another boss at Aetna, Barbara Howe, who also believed in me and encouraged me to learn and continue with my education and told me never to give up.  Then there’s Elaine Dimplefield, also from Aetna, who taught me SQL with so my patience because I didn’t know a thing!  She took an hour or two every night to show me how to create queries to pull data.  Such a gem!  I could go on.

All these women have something in common.  And yes, they all happen to be women!  They took the time to care about me.  They had patience and encouragement and directed me in the different paths of my life.  They showed me opportunities and opened doors for me.

Think about the people you come in contact with everyday.  How can you make a difference in their lives?  What if you just stopped and took time to care for those around you and to show them different opportunities they might not have otherwise?

Take time; make a difference.

Secrets of the Vine

Secrets of The Vine Ch.2

So I’m finally writing about chapter 2! 

This chapter begins with thinking of the things Jesus did not put in His hands that last night when he was delivering His message.  He didn’t put money, talk about a fancy home or car that night.  He was thinking instead of grapes. 

He said “I am the true vine, and My Father is the vine-dresser.  Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit He takes away; and every branch that bears fruit He prunes, that it may bear more fruit.  I am the vine, you are the branches.  He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit.  By this My Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit.”  (John 15:1-2, 5, 8)

I close my eyes and picture what this may look like.  I’ve been to a vineyard and see the branches of the grapevine on a trellis system growing upright and beautiful.  However, there is more.  A grapevine has a trunk like a tree and it grows straight up from the ground.  It also has roots.  The nature of the vines is to grow in every direction but up.  The trellis system is used to guide the plants growth upwards.  The grapevines then have canes or branches and from these branches grows the fruit or buds.  The branches must be pruned in order to give more fruit.

Jesus is the vine.  He is the trunk of the plant.  God the Father is the vine-dresser.  He is the keeper of the vineyard.  The task of the vinedresser is to coax the most pounds of grapes possible.  We are the branches that are responsible for bearing fruit and the focus of the vindresser.  The branches are tied to a trellis in order to provide the maximum amount of sunshine, and to allow full access for tending. 

Fruit.  What is fruit?  Fruits are good works; the best result.  Good works represent a thought, attitude, or action of ours that God values because it glorifies Him.  The fruit from our lives is how God receives His due honor on earth.  How do we bear fruit?  There are two kinds of fruit.

The first fruit is inner fruit.  We bear inner fruit when we allow God to nurture in us a new, Christlike quality:  “The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control”  (Galationas 5:22)  The second fruit is outward fruit.  We bear outward fruit when we allow God to work through us to bring Him glory.  This can be caring for a wido or bring soup to a sick friend.  Fruit is our only permanent deposit in heaven.  We are here to fulfill God’s dream (not ours) that we will bring Him glory through a remarkably abundant life.  

Unfortunately, abundant life does not happen automatically.  We, the branches, need to respond to the vinedresser.  Yet, we do not all respond the same way.  Each and every branch is different and each one will have produced a different sized crop. 

There are four distinct levels of abundance:

    Level 1:  bearing no fruit

    Level 2:  bearing some fruit

    Level 3:  bearing more fruit

    Level 4:  bearing much fruit

Which level to you think God the Father wants for each and every one of us?  Do you think He wants us to bear no fruit or just some fruit or maybe just a little more?  No, he wants us to bear much fruit.  He wants us to overflow with abundance in our lives.  This is our destiny.  We may start out our walk with God not bearing any fruit, but God tends to us and moves us from one level to the next until we are producing with abundance.  How much fruit are you bearing today?  How much fruit do you want to bear?  Sadly, statistics show that nearly half of all the Christians bear little or no fruit.  Another third bear some fruit.  Only about 5 percent bear a lot of fruit.

If Jesus chose us for abundance, expects abundance, and created us to deeply desire it, how can we ever find fullfillment in a half-empty basket?  We can’t, and we don’t have to.

Next we will be reading about three life-changing secrets from the vineyard or three keys to solving a problem.  In order to experience abundant life we must know Jesus and apply His teachings.  There is no other way.  Are you stuck in years of turmoil or pain?  Stayed tuned so you can understand how you can begin to flourish.

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Floating or going deeper

I woke up early today even though it’s Saturday.  I had a busy day ahead and lots to do!  Here I am vacuuming away.  I’m very particular.  We have a dog and I do not want my house smelling like a dog.  And we have an old rug that I dislike, but we need to make do for now.  So I have a crazy method of vacuuming… first I vacuum with the bristles a little higher from the rug and then I vacuum with the bristles closer to the rug.  The first allows me to get the general dirt off the rug and the latter allows me to get to the deeper dirty, yucky stuff like dog dander.  As I’m vacuuming a thought comes to mind.

How many Christians are floating above the surface in their Christian life?  And how many are going deeper?  We may go to church on Sunday’s, sit in our usual spots, lift up our hands in worship and listen to the sermon, but do we really have a deeper connection with God and with those sitting right next to us?  Or are we leaving church the same way we came in?  Do we even know the person sitting next to us?  I mean, REALLY know them?  Or is it all at the surface level; the superficial level where we say Good Morning and Goodbye but never really connect?  Where we respond “Good.” when asked how we are doing when in reality we’re not.  What would happen if we all decided to go deeper?  What would that look like? 

As Christians worshipping at the surface level we pick up all the major stuff, right?  Thou shall not kill.  Thou shall not steal.  Honor they mother and father.  We might even say grace before our meals.  You get the picture.  But what would happen if we were to go deeper?  Would we really honor our mother and fathers?  Would we really take the Ten Commandments to heart?  Would we spend more timing getting to know God and his Word?  Would we spend more time in communication with God our Heavenly Father?  Do you ever wonder why we don’t go deeper?  What keeps us from having that deeper connection?

I have a theory.  We’re scared.  We’re scared what going deeper with God would look like.  We’re scared to find out what God would actually do with us if we went deeper.  We’re scared to find out what would be expected of us.  We’re scared to be held accountable.  We’re scared to find out what might come to light if we went deeper.  We’re scared to find out what issues we might have to face if we went deeper with God Almighty.  Simply put; we’re scared.

If you can imagine the bristle of the brush of the vacuum cleaner, as they are closer to the rug.  No longer on the surface.  What is happening to the rug?  I think the rug is being gently lifted to shake off the dirt in order for the vacuum to pick up the dirt.  The bristles are no longer just touching the surface of the rug.  They are shaking things up.  Moving things around.  Loosening all the yucky stuff.  Our heavenly father would like to do the same with us.  He would like to get closer to us and shake all the yucky stuff off.  Loosen the dirt.  And with His gentle hand pick up that dirt (our sins) and be rid of it (them) and make us clean again.

But there is an important action that must take place before that vacuum can go from floating above the surface to going closer to the rug.  It doesn’t happen automatically (I wish it could!).  No, something needs to happen.  I NEED TO TAKE ACTION.  I need to move the lever from one surface level to the next.  In our spiritual lives WE NEED TO TAKE ACTION.  We need decide if want to move from one level to the next.  It doesn’t happen by magic or automatically and God doesn’t force us to change.  We need to make that choice on our own and we cannot do it alone.  We need fellow Christian friends to be by our side: praying for us, encouraging us and listening to us.  And how can we have Christian friends that would do that for us if all we do is say “Hello.” and “Goodbye” and we never take a moment to connect?

This is why I love the fact that my church is a church of small groups.  Where we can belong to a group with similar interests (hobbies, gender, marital status, etc.).  The members of the groups pray, encourage and support one another while learning of the Word of God.  We are not doing life alone!!  How great is that??!  When God comes along and shakes things up we are there to hold each other up.  And we are going deeper in the Word and with each other. 

Daniel Fast

Daniel Fast 1/15/2012

Well, we’ve survived the first 7 days. Yay!!!! I must say this last week was trying; and not foodwise, but feeling attacked by the enemy. But with the help of my family we prayed through it and God answered my prayers for peace. And God was glorified.

More grocery shopping this weekend. More interesting choices to pick from. LOL The challenge this shopping experience was “No, juice!? Why can’t we have juice??!” LOL There’s nothing like little ole me standing up against Jr. LOL Just needed to be reminded: the only beverage on the Daniel Fast is water to comply with Daniel 1:12 Prove thy servants, I beseech thee, ten days; and let them give us pulse to eat, and water to drink. [Pulse is food grown from seed] But we persevered and Cristian continues to do his modified version of the fast. We continue to have breakfast together, read His Word and pray each morning. We do the same at dinner time. What a blessed time!

Please keep praying for each of us! That the Lord continues to bless us as a family and that our goals during this fast are met.

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Daniel Fast – 1/11/2012

Daniel Fast 2012

1/11/2012

Well we are on day 3 of our fast and I must say I am very proud of our family. When I first brought this idea to Jr and Cristian I was not sure how it would go over. Jr agreed to it right away and even Cristian agreed to join in. I reiterated to him what it entailed and he said he still wanted to join in. I was so proud of him. Of course, I thought we would modify his diet a little here and there and not obligate him to anything too drastic after all he is only 10. But he is quite gun-ho about this fast! He is eating so healthy and not really complaining about the food. He’s choosing healthy snacks. And this morning he asked “When are we going to exercise?” Awesome! He’ll get us old folks out there moving soon!
For the past three days we have met at the kitchen table for breakfast and had breakfast together as a family. We then read the daily passage from the Daniel Fast book together. And then we pray together as a family. In the evening we get together and read (each of us taking turns) His word and focus and learn on the passage of choice. We get to discuss the passage and explain to Cristian the meaning of what we have read and he gets to ask questions to gain a better understanding. At bedtime we read “The Power of Praying Kid” with Cristian and read a bible story from his children’s bible. Individually we try to take time out to concentrate on God and his word. There’s nothing better than to hear Cristian say “I prayed before breakfast today.” To know that out of his own little heart he takes the time to close the door to his room and pray without being told is simply amazing!
Yesterday I had a challenging day. And it really got me worked up to the boy I just wanted to go home, shut down and pull the blankets over me, but not before I ate some cookies!!! But no I didn’t resort to that. I did take some time to wind down and no, I didn’t eat any cookies. That’s a victory for me! I’m such an emotional eater!! And this morning, as we were praying after breakfast, I heard my little boy say “And Lord, please help mom have a better day today.” Love it! And let me say… I have had a much better day today! Thank you Lord!

Daniel Fast

The Daniel Fast: After the Fast

Again, from The Ultimate Guide to the Daniel Fast by Kirsten Feloa

Spiritual Preparation

1. Continue to spend time in the Word each day.

2. Continue to pray.

3. Continue to journal.

Physical Preparation

1. Ease out of the fast – Take it slow. Don’t stuff your face too soon.

2. Continue to drink water – There are a lot of benefits to this.

3. Continue to make healthy choices – It’s important to continue to take care of your body.

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The Daniel Fast: During the Fast

Again, from The Ultimate Guide to the Daniel Fast by Kirsten Feloa

Focus on the Lord, and make him your top priority. You may feel tempted to cheat, compromise or even quit, but don’t. He will give you the self-control and perseverance you need to complete your fast.

Spiritual Preparation

1. Get alone with God every day – Read his Word and pray. This is a must.

2. Go through the devotions within the book – Read and meditate on what He shows you through his word.

3. Review the verses included in the book – Read the words aloud.

4. Be in contact with your prayer partner to share how he or she can continue to pray for you – Celebrate answered prayers.

5. Write down what God reveals to you – record them in your journal or notebook.

Physical Preparation

1. Drink plenty of water – Drink water. Drink water. Drink water. You should drink half your weight in ounces of water. Yes, that’s a lot of water!!! So if you weigh 100 lbs you need to drink 50 oz of water per day.

2. Plan your meals for weeks two and three.

3. Continue to refer to the meal plans for ideas.

4. Make a grocery list for weeks two and three.

5. Prepare foods ahead of time.

6. Double recipes and freeze them.

7. Improve digestion by eating slowly and chewing your food well.

8. Try juicing. Yes it says juicing!

9. Focus on food you can eat, not on foods you can’t eat.

10. Exercise. Yes, exercise! Darn it! Can’t get away from that one here either! LOL The Lord does command us to honor him with our bodies.